14/05/2014

M.E. Awareness Week: Can you imagine...

  • waking up every single day feeling the worst you've ever felt?
  • knowing that tomorrow won't be any better?
  • not being able to go to the toilet without help?
  • telling your family that you're too tired to have anything to do with them today?
  • having no alcohol but feeling like you have the hangover of your life?
  • collapsing every time you try to stand alone?
  • needing to be pushed everywhere in a wheelchair?
  • never being able to cook or look after the love of your life?
  • having to depend on someone for every single thing?
  • knowing that you might never get better?
  • being abandoned by your friends because you can't do the things you used to?
  • knowing that you will probably have this horrid illness for the rest of your life?
  • being confined to one room for nearly every day of the year?
  • not being able to eat some of your favourite things because you have new allergies?
  • losing your voice after talking to someone for just 10 minutes?
  • waking up in pain again and again every night?
  • never feeling the sun on your back or the wind in your hair?
  • having to have your boyfriend help you with that time of the month?
  • every single damn movement feeling like the Hulk's got hold of you?
  • knowing that when you have a child you may not be able to look after them properly?
  • never being able to run through the fields with your dogs?
  • feeling like you have 1000 weight vests strapped to every part of your body?
  • living in a muffled world when your brain just can't take it?
  • never listening to your favourite song for fear of what it will do to your head?
  • wanting to cry all day because your body is broken?
  • being absolutely knackered every second of every day?
  • hearing all these amazing stories but never being a part of them?
  • missing out on your baby sisters birthday or last school play?
  • not getting help from anyone medical even though sometimes your heart struggles to pump?
  • hearing people say 'you should be doing ...' even though it's impossible?
  • being stared at when you leave the house in your wheel chair with the head rest?
  • your dog leaving the room because you can't give him the attention he craves?
  • needing someone else to do every single thing for you?
  • not even being able to have the curtains open because it's just too bright?
  • curling up in the worst pain imaginable? 
  • being so tired that the room moves but when you try to sleep it won't happen?
  • having to wear the same clothes a few days in a row because it's tiring to change?
  • feeling like you've done nothing with your life?
  • thinking everyone would be better off if you weren't around to be cared for?
  • being scared that this illness just might kill you in the end?

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